And life goes on...

We hate it so much when people do bad to us. Too much most of the time, that we tend to forget that we are not that good actually.

You and I, do mistakes. Me in particular, are neither a saint nor as good as some views I am.

I do lot of mistakes. A lot that sometimes they kill my heart and make me crying. You wont see my tears now because I m too selfish. But believe me, when you do mistakes, you just feel the guilt. And the feeling is like a complete darkness that tries to wrap you slowly.

it is always amazed me how Muhammad p.b.u.h able to use a simple simile to conclude many principal issues in life. Talking about sins is one of his very good ones.

Muhammad p.b.u.h says that a sin is like a small dot on your heart. His simile is just like what I feel, that most of time, I take the simile literally. That there is a small black dot on my heart if the sin is small and I believe it will be bigger dot if the sin is serious.

This dots kill my heart. They make me ignorant. They cover my heart from the light of wisdom and knowledge. They cover my heart from the rational of mind and the honesty of soul.

I still like to talk about the accident that happened to me. Among the very first feelings that come into my heart is anger and despair. I feel that this guy or girl, is a very bad human being. I rate them among worst who had alive.

It took me time to realize the real wisdom. You cannot say that I forgive the sin, because what is suitable for any sin is just a curse. But you can say that I am ready to forgive the sinner, because I am no good than him either.

In any situation, I believe that being sinful is not a choice. Because there are always option. And God will never be cruel. He will always provide room to us. Maslahah, Dharurah, you just name it. That is why I say that you cannot justify a sin.

However, human tends to make wrong choice. And God does admit this. Indeed He says that we are most of the times forgetful. Of who we are and where we are going, that the choice taken seems to be off the right path.

We learn great lesson from God. He always ready to forgive. He is ready to forgive because He knows that human makes wrong choices. I am ready to forgive, because I realize, I made wrong choices.

Empathy. It does not come handy.

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11 Oktober 2007
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